Friends

I feel like I've been a bad friend. Not to everyone, but to some I haven't seen in AGES. I really miss K, L, D, etc... but I've been having soo much fun with M, R, A. I basically am terrible at orchestrating and many of my close friends know that. But I feel bad for those who are just as terrible as I am, or who maybe have just had it with me and my lack of phone calls, emails, and so on.

I don't like to use excuses and I don't think having my kids is a good enough reason for not spending time with people who I love being with. I keep thinking of things I want to do in order to include as many as possible, but then how considerate is that of people who want to talk and interact one on one?

Maybe my 30th birthday resolution should be to reach out to those I miss and try harder. I hate feeling or knowing that someone is upset or angry with me - and I know it's happened on more than one occasion. I used to think I was perfect :) Looking back it seems I have more broken relationships than outstanding ones, is that a reflection of my personality or simply time gone by, misunderstandings, personality differences, and the proverbial love lost?

I'm not sorry for who I am, simply sorry for not doing what I should in reaching out to those I truly love and care for.

It goes without saying that I also love spending time with my sisters, cousins, Mom, & husband. I don't tend to have many issues with my family... they never go away :)