Will Anyone Notice?

I'm posting on my blog again. Will anyone notice? Will anyone cheer? Or will they say, "we know this won't last, it will be another year before she posts again..."

I just wanted to take a few moments out of my life and write down some words for posterity. Yesterday was Christmas. I spent time with some of my favourite people of all time. I have two wonderful parents, a Dad who gave me advice on both my twitching eye (too much stress) and Jericho's wart (keep it clean!). As well as a Mom who goes out of her way each and every day for everyone she cares about. I also have 4 siblings and 2 (almost 3) adopted siblings. They are the loudest people in the entire world. People joke that they can hear my Dad laugh in China, but sometimes I think they really can! There is plenty of teasing, but there is love there too. My nieces and nephews make my heart overflow. They are all lovely. I can see the various personalities emerging and the life-long friendships develop. Together, with help from their Moms & auntie's, they performed the nativity for all of us. They are all amazing little people.

My Grandma & Nana were both there as well. I had to take a few moments to consider how much longer they each will be with us, to cherish them.

There was even a moment where I found a note my cousin had written to my Mom in this memory book we did for her 50th birthday. She wrote a long note about how she marvelled at my Mom's ability to care for 5 children when she was realizing that even one had it's challenges. But at one point in the note, she said something along the lines of only being able to hope that she would reach 50. She passed away in 2009. Life is so short.

As 2011 draws to a close and I look back at my goals and dreams that I conjured up in ending of 2010, I wonder if maybe I didn't think big enough. I had wanted to save money, to exercise, to spend more time with those I love.... but I think the more important dream, the one I should have for this upcoming year - is to cherish. I'm now older than Rebekah was when she went to be with Jesus, and it makes me realize that every day is sacred, a gift.

My prayer for 2012 is that I can work more on my legacy. What is it I want to leave my children with? What will they remember of my character, my integrity? Will they know I valued my faith? Will they know I hold them so dear? Will my husband know how much my heart aches when I think of how much I love him? Do my friends know how their encouragement and love is what not only keeps me going, but how it makes me want to soar? My family, do they know how much I really care?

xoxo 2011, you've been good... even if I didn't write about you much.